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I remember sitting there thinking my body was broken.

Not weak. Not confused. Broken.

I was young. My husband’s sperm was fine. The doctors said there was nothing I could do about egg quality. They never once looked at my immune system. They never once mentioned high natural killer cells. And yet ...

There is a moment when slowing down does not feel peaceful.
It feels edgy.
Exposed.
Almost unsafe.

Not because something bad will happen.
But because of who you might be without the doing.

For many women, overdoing is not something they do.
It is who they are.

The capable one.
The reliable one.
The one ...

I was 30 when I sat in a small room and was told my eggs were the problem.

All of my embryos were highly fragmented. My husband’s sperm was fine. So it was me. Low egg quality. Nothing you can do. Try IVF again.

I remember the quiet shame in that room. The kind that sits heavy in your chest. The k...

Every pregnancy announcement lands somewhere in your body before it lands in your mind. It is not just a thought. It is a sensation. A tightening in your chest. A quiet comparison you wish you did not make. The question rises almost involuntarily.

Why she gets pregnant and you can’t.

You might not...

I was stuck in infertility BS for years.

Not because I was not trying.
Not because I was not doing the physical work.
Not because I did not care enough.

I was stuck because I refused to take radical responsibility for my own bullshit.

If I could go back to 27 when this journey started I would sit t...

I did everything right.

The diet was clean. The supplements were precise. My gut health was dialed in. I understood mitochondria and cellular health. I knew that egg quality was not random and that your body is not frozen at thirty just because someone in a white coat says it is.

My fertility jour...

There is a version of you that never stops moving.

Not because she has to.
Because stopping feels unsafe.

She is organized. Reliable. Admired.
She is the one who carries it all.
And she is tired in a way sleep does not fix.

Overdoing rarely looks like chaos.
It looks like competence.

It looks like s...

I was twenty seven and living in unexplained infertility hell.

After my second failed IVF I had nothing left to optimize.

For a year I had been perfect. Perfect diet. Perfect supplements. Yoga. Meditation. Labs that looked clean. I looked healthy. I felt healthy. On paper there was nothing to fault.

And I still did not make it to day twenty eight.

The only t...